fucking depression

yana,
u r stupid girl
u want the world
to remain in the way u want.
but u r powerless worm.
what can u do
to make the world
such as u want?
nothing.
useless, pathetic and lost,
u cling to those
who r stronger.
but in the end
u r still afraid
to be alone.
and all has an influence,
everything changes u -
but u like it
even if u know it`s bad.
u hate your weakness,
which always gives u
a tremendous sense of guilt.
constantly.
u want to hide it
from everyone
but u can`t
because u r an asshole.